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Earlier this year
Emilia: If your girlfriend hates me, please don't stop being friends with me.
Me: Emilia, we've been best friends forever, if she hates you, she can deal.
Lately
Emilia: Alex is always pissed about you, and you're really not worth it as a friend anymore.
Me: lol, fuck you too, hypocrite! I take back what I said, she has every right to hate you.
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I'm not precarious about it purely because Alex is pissed at you. Yeah, we both found it odd that you were going out of your way to stay friends earlier in the semester and then suddenly dropped off the face of the earth when you got a girlfriend. I said I'll see how things go, but it's kind of nerve wracking when you talk about how uncomfortable you suddenly are hanging out with me, but you don't want to text me because you'd rather hang out in person. That uncomfortable thing wasn't really an issue until about a month ago, and if it was, it wasn't enough of an issue for you to act on it. Logically, the action pieces don't fit with the word pieces.
Alex didn't believe from the gitgo that you dated me for any reason other then to have A girlfriend, and in his eyes, you magically stopped chasing me the second you got another one. So yeah, that didn't help your case with him. He has other reasons too, but this is the only one we really hold in common. Those don't factor into how I feel. But that's his business and not mine. I don't really want to change another person because of what I think, it turned out so goddamn well last time I tried. Yeah, I'll admit it's not a big enough issue for me to break up with him over. It's a thing.
So yeah, I still want to be friends because I want to believe what I think right now isn't true. I didn't realize you were extremely nose-to-the-grind busy before school ended, so I'm willing to believe that played into just never hearing from you.
I didn't come back last night because Alex wound up sleeping on my couch. I know you don't like him so I didn't come back by and bring him to not upset you. And if was going to piss you off so goddamn much, why didn't you just ask me to stick around when I dropped you back at your place?
And as an added note, I didn't really expect your girlfriend to like me in the first place. I'm kind of abrasive, if you haven't noticed. And if I'm not, Alex will be for me.
Edited several times for clarity cause my parents are trying to read over my shoulder down in the kitchen.